Right mindset for a guilty mum?

What is better? Working from home around the children and other commitments or commuting every day to an office, paying for childcare and returning home to spend evenings and weekends with your children?

I have done both and I can honestly say I havent the faintest idea. At work in an office, my baby boy is in childcare and I can focus on work at home my baby boy is with me most of the time but my focus isnt always on him and Peppa Pig episodes do come in handy, but I will always ensure during the day we get to do something purely for baby boy, even if it is just for a couple of hours. But I still feel guilty. I think that is the biggest problem deciding between both lifestyles, the guilt is equal.

You have to be really good at ‘mindfulness’ when working from home and looking after children as well. I have to let go of the to do list for periods so I cam focus on being Mum, but be ready to pick it up again as and when I need it. If I mix both, I become this ‘on edge’ mother and snappy and I hate that. So you have o be a chameleon but not let it f*** up your head.

My daughter isnt as affected as she is at school and I am still able to be there for her at the beginning and the end of the day but I still wonder if she has noticed a difference in my mindset. As for baby boy, I would love to know what he thinks too, but at 3 years old (almost) I wonder if he could tell me (or am I too afraid to ask).

This blog is for Unicef.

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