an unusual and unwanted desire

Had a weird experience today – I was feeling so wretched (a good word mainly found in Austen or Bronte novels or Dickens..) that I felt like cutting myself. For a brief moment it felt like that was the only thing I could do to release the anger and pain that was temporarily inside me. I punched my arm instead and after a while My emotions seemed to pass over like a dark cloud.

I need to sort things out though (ie my job) or else that cloud will come back. 

My medicine was to spend over £10 on some brilliant books in Oxfam – now it’s the end of the day I just need sleep.

It’s a pain having to earn money but at least I have that opportunity.

This blog is for UNICEF.

Thanks for reading. 


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