I have forgotten how to work. Meeting my husband’s cousins who both hold down high-powered jobs in the city reminded me of the world of computers, phones, offices and emails. I have had the most wonderful break from it. Many people nowadays say that women need the balance of being a mum and also holding down a job for ‘intellectual stimulation’. The only thing that work stimulates is my anxiety levels and the ability to care terribly about things that really don’t matter very much. In fact there are more jobs that don’t matter than jobs that do. when I say ‘matter’, I mean those jobs that make a difference to people’s lives.
My job does not make a difference, not to other people and not even to my bank balance once childcare is accounted for. Don’t get me wrong, I enjoy it. I enjoy being a parent more. Both have their ups and downs but motherhood has fulfilment in bucket-loads.
So I have been trying to find a new career path that will reciprocate some of that fulfilment during daylight bourse while my children are at school and later leading their own lives. I have opted for social work, which requires a whole new set of skills and qualification. I would particularly like to specialise with children. I have expressed this with my Mum, who doesn’t think my sensitive nature is cut out for the job. I haven’t discussed it in any detail with my husband yet as he is still sorting out his own career. But I have a quiet determination to bring about this change and I am secretly excited about putting myself to better use between now and the grave.
Time with your children is invaluable when they are precious to you. There are some people who don’t value their children and even harm them. That is why I want to go into social work because all children deserve to feel precious.
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